Trials

So, today I was pondering about trials. How we all go through them, how we all handle them differently. I have been through some hard times in my life, and a few of my hardest ones I haven't told very many people about. I have, however, talked about my current trial and that is lack of children. I recently posted this as my status update on Facebook:

I can't wait to have kids, but instead of moping about NOT having kids I have decided to do the following:
1-Be grateful for what I do have.
2- Look forward to the day that I DO have kids.
3- Focus on the perks of not having kids (ie midnight date at Dennys with Jungleboy, no babysitter necessary)!


That is how I feel 95.7% of the time. I really am trying to be positive and not focus on the things I don't have. However, sometimes its very hard to do. Its hard to understand sometimes why things are the way they are. Why some people get pregnant so easily. Why it is so hard for others. This is how I feel about trials: We all have different ones. That doesn't make the trials we are given any easier. We also all have different strengths. My strengths are obviously different than Jungleboys, than the girls I work with, than my family members. But I still have strengths. Trials help to strengthen us. I like to think that for every month that goes by that I don't get pregnant, I will appreciate my babies that much more. We are getting close to 60 months of marriage, so that's a whole lot of appreciation I will have saved up. I also think that we never know whats going on with someone. They may seem like they have everything together on the outside, but on the inside are falling apart. I am trying to work on being more compassionate and remembering that we all have trials and we are all sometimes hurting. Now, I usually don't get too spiritual in these posts, but I was just reminded of a scripture that I once memorized when Jungleboy and I were going through a hard time. We started memorizing scriptures, one every week. I honestly feel that helped my life so much. The scripture is from the Book of Mormon and it is Helaman 5:12. 

 12 And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the^arock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your ^bfoundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty ^cstorm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall.

Even now,  remembering the strength it gave me reminds me of how much our Savior loves us. I challenge you all to memorize this scripture (I still have it memorized, its the only one of the 30+ scriptures that I memorized almost 2 years ago that I still have down WORD for WORD!) I am challenging myself to memorize a scripture once a week again. We can't do anything to stop trials, they will always be a part of life, but we can do our best with the tools we have been given. 

One of my favorites by Greg Olsen.